joy

I dont really like the word "happy". Yes, it describes an emotion, but I just think of "happy" as something temporary and fleeting. As something worldly and only semi-permanent. I try and avoid using happy to describe anything.

I do like "joyful". I think that word describes something deeper than happiness. I don't desire to be temporarily happy.... But I do want to always have joy. You see, joy transcends circumstance. If someone is joyful, they find joy no matter what. Whereas happiness is conditional and, well, fleeting.

I am not happy with my life. I am joyful. I am content beyond belief. I have realized how wonderful of a family I have. How lucky am I do have 4 sisters who I actually want to be friends with?! As we get closer and get along better, I couldn't imagine any different of a family. I love them. :)

How lucky am I to have such remarkable friendships!? I have a large group of people I consider my best friends. They live all over the country. They are the people I can pick right up where we left off... Those who I never worry about losing because they really will be my friends forever.

And I am so blessed to have a man in my life who reveals the character of Jesus to me daily. He has helped me redefine love and relationship. It is so beautiful. I sit in thankful awe daily because of him.

And, best of all, I have a God who leads me with lovingkindness day in and out. He is my rock and my shield. What is more joyous than that?!?

So no. I am not happy.

I am overflowing with joy.